Regarding leaving BreadTube / LeftTube

 Anarchists & Leftists want oppression to end ! We differ in strategy, praxis & perception. 

It takes strength to be confident when you are different from the world around you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9O3CwyrBpOc&list=PLJLbzpbdP5rmwYdlaXaM1tYzNadaen6FK

At the time of the 3 BreadTube appearances , I wasn't aware of what Dialectical Materialism was.

If I was aware that most people were for it, that it means Anti-ME ! ( Idealism ( my MBTI personality type is INFP ) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rb4FYakPAQU and Anti-Metaphysics just means that most people are Atheists and are against New Thought / New Age Spirituality which I'm for as a Spiritual Anarchist.

, and If I was aware of Old Left vs New Left , 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Old_Left

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/New_Left

https://www.anarchistfaq.org/afaq/sectionA.html#seca36

And how New Left / Cultural Anarchists from the past were saying resinating things that sounded very similar to the situation I was in , https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqTQEaYzB7M , 

Perhaps those BreadTube appearances wouldn't have happened at all and I won't have been seen on BreadTube / LeftTube in the first place.

This is why I HATE POLITICS !

I much prefer a philosophical perspective on Anarchism instead.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2oHcb1LjM4

Personality Types and Traits do exist !

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2KRLhFPIvU

And so does Personality Clash !

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vam6Ht4jN0A

Conflict doesn't need to happen to notice how certain traits / personality types aren't going to get along.

An Anarchist FAQ states the following.

"Hierarchical, authoritarian institutions tend to be self-perpetuating, because growing up under their influence creates submissive/authoritarian personalities. "

Also, not all Anarchists are for Authoritarian Left. https://www.anarchistfaq.org/afaq/sectionH.html

To me, Authoritarianism doesn't mean Left. It means ABUSE !

I've been a victim of ableist hate crime my entire life !

Most by White CisHet Men with Toxic Masculinity problems and a lack of Emotional Intelligence.

Anti-Fascist action to me means END THE TERRORISM !

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fq7RBYzYoHk

Life is easier for the White CisHet Man who's more objective minded and has a right leaning political background.

Not so much for someone who has all odds against her, been a victim of hate crime and still am, and everything I do comes out of my pocket of what little I have to survive on.

Leaving BreadTube / LeftTube doesn't mean quitting the good that I do.

I just feel unwanted. 

The support of people who like what I do is always appreciated, thank you. :) _ Erica