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Thursday, May 9, 2019

Misdiagnosed and Poverty ( An Anti-Capitalist Article )


Misdiagnosed and Poverty
( an anti-capitalist article )  : From an INFP Trans Woman Anarchist Perspective








It’s time once again for one of my controversial / taboo subject matter blog posts .

But to put your mind at ease , I am an Anarchist . For those who don’t know what I’m talking about , in other words , I’m as left-leaning as you can get but not a liberal nor am I a right wing Libertarian .

The other thing is I am NOT ablest. But at the same time I don’t side with the liberal way of going about it. Which explains why I have satirized the sort of recent Sesame Street in Communities movement for being too Liberal as well as how Liberal politics I felt just does not work at all. You can watch the hilarious political satire puppet parody sketches “ Liberal Street “ right here

Once again , by no means is this article about my opinions about people with disabilities. Because all I really have to say is that it’s caused by toxins in the environment due to capitalism , perhaps vaccines , pregnancy complications , etc
But we are all human , we are all spirits no matter what.
And the big issue when it comes to the subject of people with disabilities has nothing to do with those who are disabled , my concern is their care takers and the political gunk that screws everything up.
From the authoritarian right’s ableism to the liberal’s ( not all ) imagination that disability means “ Specially Gifted Genius “ .
I do have a concern about these sorts of caretakers who are so wrapped up in their political dogma and even their own ego that they forget that people with disabilities are kind of like adult children. But that also brings up another aspect which is parenting.
Most parents SUCK ! But when someone is disabled , to me , some have a limit regarding a mental age maturity or processing problems.


 Ok now , this blog post / article is related to a video I did awhile back called “ iNtuitive Discrimination “ 


If you have watched the video then perhaps you’ll know that this is coming from a private 
aspect of my life which can be too close to the bone and too close for comfort .
Being diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome in childhood and also as an adult ( among other things which I also choose to ignore because I ain’t hurting no one so who cares )
I have went through an interesting journey 10 years ago.
As you already know there are many positives in my life’s journey so far in which I have learned about aspects of myself thanks to my life experience and it relating to the genius invention of the internet. ( SAVE NET NEUTRALITY / SCREW INTERNET CAPITALISM  )
One aspect of my life that I don’t talk about much is the Asperger’s Syndrome diagnose or how I used to hang around message forums such as “ Wrong Planet “ .

As one who practices law of attraction , I do feel uncomfortable talking about things in my private life like this however if I know that it will help people in someway perhaps I’m not so vulnerable . 

Now one of the most controversial things that you can say politically , especially when you live in The United States of America is any sort of mention of Pro-Disability Income / Food Stamps / Welfare .
Let me just say that I am an Anarchist and even though Anarchists are against hierarchy as well as taxes , wage labor slavery , capitalism , etc just to name a few ,
We stand by the fact that getting rid of Disability Income / Welfare IS NOT THE ANSWER TO PEOPLE’S PROBLEMS ! So if there’s going to be a bunch of people who are going to get all angry at me for living off of their tax dollars and throw insults and threats at me such as “ YOU LOUSY LAZY FAT GOOD FOR NOTHING BUM , GET A FREAKIN’ JOB ! AND IF I EVER MEET YOU IN LIFE I WOULD PUNCH YOU IN THE NOSE ! “ , just keep in mind I DID NOT INVENT THIS HIERARCHICAL SYSTEM THAT RUINS YOUR LIFE also THE WORLD DOESN’T REVOLVE ONLY AROUND YOU !

Again I was diagnosed in childhood as well as adulthood. I cut my abusive father out of my life in 2012 when I was 24. Even though I have had my own apartment since 2010 , my mother has always been in the same neighborhood because I ran away with her to escape my father’s abuse . Today my mother is my next-door neighbor and I think she is ESFP ( personality type ) and perhaps has Codependency personality disorder. One moment who’s doing all my chores for me even though I’m 31 , Sweet I know , but seriously I NEVER ASKED HER TO DO ANY OF THIS FOR ME ! So I just shrug as “ Oh she’s just spoiling me ! “ But also the fact that both of us are in poverty and she cooks for me ( I don’t like her cooking and home cooking itself personally ) and I do things for her on occasion regardless. The obvious stuff . Mother’s Day , Birthday , Christmas , Sharing a Pizza , taking my mom out to eat somewhere , I even bought her a FireTV Stick and a little Kindle Tablet from Amazon and we both share the internet. Also I helped her understand what YouTube was about and thanks to that she canceled her cable . Not only is that a good thing , a spit in the eye at mainstream media of course but also so she can have a little less money trouble in her life.

Since my spiritual awakening after I meet my Twin Flame face to face which started the Twin Flame Ascension and my Twin Flame Running from me , etc ( for more information to understand just what the hell am I talking about please check out the website twinflames1111.com/blog ) 
Not only was I guided to Anarchism seeing THE TRUTH that’s often hidden from life
But also since 2016 I have been working hard every single day and night with my Twin Flame in telepathy to complete our Ascension process resulting to Twin Flame Reunion.
And I have come to the conclusions that my Twin Flame mirrors MY MOOD aka Twin Flame Mirror and mastering Law of Attraction is not only key to our Twin Flame Reunion but also to get out of the funk I’m in. 
For more info on The Law of Attraction check out this link

What funk you ask ? Well I do believe that when you gain spiritual awakening / Kundalini
 ( and I am not talking about some spiritual religion , if I was going to describe my experience of spirituality to you , I would use the word PARANORMAL ! IT’S F**KING REAL ! ) dark entities will do whatever they can to stop you since empaths are the energy vampire sociopaths favorite target probably because they associate empathy with weakness which of course is anything but that .
Well again I want to be careful due to my Law of Attraction spiritual practice but I will say this.
For the most part things are peaceful in my apartment where my mother unfortunately SUFFERS with the lack of sleep and calling the police all the time on downstairs neighbors relating to a situation that’s hard for me to swallow without evidence or proof. Regardless I do have sympathy for my mother at the time I write this. 

I’ll talk about this a little more later in this article , but to back up a bit , I live in a neighborhood of apartment buildings which I can never call a luxurious paradise and that’s just putting it mildly.
As an Anarchist , I am now more aware more than ever of the evils of capitalism.
In other words there’s a perfectly good reason why I NEVER EVER OPEN THE BLINDS OF MY WINDOWS EVER !
Inside the apartment it’s nice and quiet and peaceful. Which explains why I’m writing this article at 2:32am and my sleep is totally off.
However , I’ve always noticed since I lived her that once I walk out my door , I see a much more depressing environment of bad abusive parents with wild children abandoning their toys all broken in the yards , and creepy drug dealing / drug addict middle aged adults who either gave up hope of life living in depression or are sociopaths or BOTH !

Since my spiritual awakening , both me and my mother were being bullied by just about 99% of the neighbors in the neighborhood. Why ?
Simple. Because I’m a Transgender Lesbian Woman.
Also these 99% neighbors vote for Trump and are sociopaths.
Plus my mother started to realize that there was illegal drug crime activity going on in the neighborhood.
The ironic aspect of this neighborhood is not only does the landlords seem to ignore it but we have a police station LITERALLY next to this neighborhood . It’s LITERALLY walking distance even though cops never show up for you until a half an hour later.

My mother is certainly getting an education. These cops don’t care either.
But so far , I haven’t experienced any sort of police brutality so far and I hope I never will.
Misgendering yes , they called me he / him instead of she / her and they did apologize when I corrected them regardless of the lack of my legal name and gender mark change .

Still I have experienced tons of transphobia from two men literally harassing me to the point of me leaving my first apartment and living in my mother’s living room and even her bedroom until just this November for over a year ,
I was sexually harassed by a woman who was 35 when I knew her who faked a friendship and just a bunch of sociopaths who act nice one moment then the next call me the f slur behind my back and just the typical fascism to expect from homophobic / transphobic right wing sociopathic bullies and drug addicts / dealers .

So how did I deal with all of this ? Passively to their faces and expressed myself as the satirist I am. My mother on the other hand knows this about me. I’m an empath but I’m too much of a pacifist kind caring soul , and when she notices that I’m getting harassed , she calls herself “ THE MOMMA BEAR “ and ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE .
But still liberal.

Neither me and her have much of a social life. I just got one friend , my Twin Flame , anyone who likes me stuff and acquaintances here and there.
So yeah , pretty extreme situation.
Any of course my mother would be pissed off at me for revealing any of this because she’s scared for her life.
Both of us have been diagnosed with stuff so yeah that explains the neighborhood situation.

So how’s life for me so far ? Well like I mentioned earlier , I’m working on Twin Flame Ascension , I enjoy the work that I do , in other words …. I focus on my life and what I like and what I can do with my talents as a lightworker as well as an Anarchist to make the world a better place.
My mother ON THE OTHER HAND , her life is in hell. And if she doesn’t drain my energy too bad ( empaths literally pick up on the energy of others ) , I try to cheer her up.
But it gets harder and harder to do that.
Because of my mother’s codependency and rejecting anything I have to say including reminder her to read “ The Secret “ book I gave her , yes I did get angry because my mother can be extremely smothering.

What’s the logical solution ? My mother wants to GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE !
But since she’s concern of my well being , she wants me to have a better future .
She knows that I want my independence and she knows I get pissed off at her when she over spoils me and invades my privacy as an introvert.

So what’s my plan regarding having a better place to live ?
Twin Flame REUNION !
So you see why I’m not as frazzled as my mother ? 
Spiritually I know that a miracle is available , I just need to visualize what I want .
( Instead of focusing most of my attention on my love of the internet and contributing to it right . lol , yes iNtuitives such as myself could care less about “ THE REAL WORLD “ because it’s only an illusion . ;)  ) Security comes from within. Inner Peace equals to World Peace . :)

What’s my mother’s plan ?
Any legal action she can take and USE DISABILITY SERVICES TO HELP ME FIND A NEW PLACE TO LIVE AND HAVE AN INDEPENDENT LIFE !

Long story short , in childhood , television was my only friend LITERALLY !
My father was my worst enemy , and the first scariest person in my life.
He was only happy with me if he bought me stuff or if I conformed to doing well at school.

Both my father and mother seen me as mentally disabled.
I was placed in special education , seeing therapists that weren’t very good ( which inspired me to create Dr LeBrick ) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmQL63Nk9Qo&list=PLJLbzpbdP5rnuIuAE5vW9c_jw5EkjXr8z .
, Disability after school programs , lived in a children’s mental hospital between a week or a month without any love from parents or ANYONE ( it still brings a symbolic tear to my eye )  and meetings all my life until 2012 ( when I was 24 ) .
The only diagnoses I would agree with is having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ( which only effects my nightmares and weird dreams I unfortunately have on a regular basis that effects sleep health a little bit. ) .

Everything I teach about self confidence , waking up to the truth , etc 
I did not learn in school or my parents.
At some point in my life , I learned that sometimes there’s going to be people who WILL NOT BE THERE FOR YOU , so since high school I learned to see the strengths of being an outcast and nonconformist and the importance of individuality . Plus also I’m an introvert so maybe that helped , I don’t know. lol

DEEP BREATH ! PROTECTED BY SPIRIT , LOVE AND LIGHT NOW !
Ok . 

So spiritually it’s very challenging.
But perhaps it’s teaching me something.
Twin Flame Ascension is triggering as hell , so is all of this .

So how do I keep my sanity ?
Stuff that could threaten my life ?

Well , this article currently helps me.

Yes it’s aimed at Twin Flames but it can be applied to anyone in relevance to shielding energy and Law of Attraction / New Thought and New Age Spirituality.


So yes , keep my thoughts positive . Even though the police have bothered me at my door asking me tons of questions relating to my mother’s health .

So yes my mother. By night she’s complaining about and screaming downstairs neighbors and activity of shocking her through the floor boards and “ doing something with the internet “ which I can’t see at all but my logic doesn’t help neither is reasoning with her. She is hearing noises I can’t hear , duck taping towels and blankets all over the walls and the floor radiator including doing all this in my apartment. Having all my computer stuff in my kitchen , blocking most of the unused electric outlets , telling me not to use my refrigerator , not to use any computer / electronics in my own living room / I even took pictures of how insane the situation is.
My mother doesn’t even sleep on her own bed but using two pilled up air mattresses while her mattress to her bed along with most of her furniture is leaned and pilled up against her wall.
She even slept on her own floor and bathtub and tells me she didn’t sleep.
AND I thought I had sleeping issues. Mine is just nightmares I sleep through but drain me.
So yeah my mother’s situation is more extreme than mine.
All through the night my mother is hanging out in the hallway ready to go after anyone who sneaks into our apartment building ( not our apartments but there’s 4 apartments per building and the buildings are wall to wall , cheap walls in fact . Ex-Military apartments . )
And she told me that even her cat gets “ Jolted “ to the point where her cat fears walking around the floor but gets by walking across the apartment by jumping upon all the stacked up furniture and any furniture , anything off the floor like walking on a bridge to safety . Then sleeps on my mom’s bed or the kitchen table instead of her cat beds. She has one and one she loves which is a basket with a blanket over it.

Remember how I mentioned my mother does things for me ? Well I don’t have food in my apartment so since my mom is my next-door neighbor , all I have to do is walk across and use the spare key she made me. ( I don’t let her have mine anymore , because she kept budging in invading my space , but she’s an extrovert so she doesn’t mind. She told me many times so I’m not just assuming that. ) . 
But here’s the thing. I DID NOT ORDER ANY DRAMA ! And that’s what I get.


Anyway , I’m not here to be all whiny about my personal problems and playing the victim.
I just wanted to mention how this is just one of the many problems in life
ALL THANKS TO CAPITALISM and HIERARCHICAL POWER OVER OTHERS !


Perhaps you’d like to take a break , intermission time , toilet break , get something to eat.
Check your social media status .

OKAY , 
Now for part 2 .

Intuitive Discrimination ,
I have mentioned that in February 2018 , I went to see a Neurologist and saying this was a 2 appointment nightmare is just putting it mildly.
This Christian Right Neurologist , possibly an ISTJ / ESTJ 
Is the sort of person which I would do something to which I RARELY EVER DO TO ANYONE IN PUBLIC , SHOUT AT HIM IN ANGER !
And if your an INFP or related personality type then you know exactly what I’m talking about.
AKA THE AUTHORITARIAN PERSONALITY !
He was also homophobic and transphobic !
And let me tell you , it’s just like a judge who my mother took me to see trying to get a restraining order on a neighbor which she suspects started THIS WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD MESS !
It was the first time I was ever in a court room and hopefully the last.
Even though there was NO JURY , the same religious ritual was the same.
RIDGED , SYSTEMATIC , STUPID and I got into Anarchism SHORTLY AFTERWORDS in the summer of 2017.
This RIGHT WING TRANSPHOBIC PRICK who looked like a Conservative spitting image twin brother of Lloyd Kaufman . 
But more authoritarian and intimating and not satirical and silly which Lloyd Kaufman is known for . lol

 ANYWAY
My video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HEV24baR0H4 Intuitive Discrimination
Was making a point in which I have noticed about the Neurology test .

IT IS RIGGED BY HIERARCHICAL POWER !

It’s most certainly something I would agree with Libertarian Socialist Rants on

Psychology should be used to help people , not the sociopaths who are on the top of the ruling class hierarchical system.

INFPs and similar personality types
Introverts / Perceivers / iNtuitives
LGBTQ+
Anyone who is left leaning politically



YOU WILL BE DIAGNOSED !

The Pros : Since we are the sort of people who can’t just blindly take just about any lousy 9-5 wage labor slavery job that’s available if discriminated against and or NOT being a personality type that’s not an ST / TJ personality type , NO PROBLEM …
Live off of people’s tax dollars and working on doing something that’s MEANINGFUL TO YOU AND HUMANITY AND PLANET EARTH !

The Cons : It sucks if you have a credit card . It’s barely enough to live on.
But if you go to work , technically if you really think about it , people bust their ass at work making pretty much the same amount so it really doesn’t matter because CAPITALISM IS FREAKIN RIGGED !



In other words 

Authoritarian Personalities / This Hierarchical System thinks

INFPs and similar personality types
Introverts / Perceivers / iNtuitives
LGBTQ+
Anyone who is left leaning politically
Spiritual empath lightworker psychic ability

ARE MENTALLY ILL !



Some think that Asperger’s Syndrome is relating to who they are.
Libertarian Socialist Rants for example expressed this.


slayerment.com has raised several points about being an introverted intuitive trapped in an extroverted sensor society and how Government runs on this very principle.

I would recommend the site however it is ran by an INTJ Anarcho-Capitalist / Right Wing Libertarian who has put Anarchism / Socialism down and I had to even comment many time on his website regarding his errors . However just like I mentioned about in5D.com , it’s just one of those sites where there’s more weeds than flowers in the garden so you got to pick cautiously and critically .
I’ve talked about my experience previously
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqHQkfhwX5I ( Get Your Right Wing out of my Spirituality )

I don’t know if it’s an INTJ / INTP thing to be open to all knowledge and focus on logical objectiveness , I don’t know. lol



Anyway I feel that it relates hand in hand. 


Authoritarian Personalities / This Hierarchical System thinks

INFPs and similar personality types
Introverts / Perceivers / iNtuitives
LGBTQ+
Anyone who is left leaning politically
Spiritual empath lightworker psychic ability

ARE MENTALLY ILL and these sick sociopaths in power who hate people like us
Finds us to be useless members in society !


But perhaps thanks to liberals / democrats ,
These fascists won’t develop some sort of holocaust genuine against us…. YET ! ,
And I kid you not when I say that Right Wing people are strongly linked to Fascism and cause all the problems of the world.
Anarchists know this !

But it’s just like how Gender Identity Disorder was replaced with the name Gender Dysphoria .
All it does is make things hurt less even though it still hurts.
But you can’t just put a bandage on the boo-boo and make it better , you need to go to the root cause of how the pain happened in the first place.

In conclusion

As a Transgender Lesbian Woman( INFP , Anarchist , who’s also a lightworker … )
I don’t think I’m mentally ill .
I don’t think I have Asperger’s Syndrome ( anymore ) .
I think there’s a bunch of misdiagnoses going around.
Even spiritual people have been diagnosed with things like ADD

But in the time where Liberals praise Autism Speaks and Julia is the first autistic Muppet on Sesame Street and the director of Rain Man made a movie of an Asperger’s Syndrome called “ MOZART AND THE WHALE “ which I no longer consider to be a favorite movie.
And when Right Wing people take the “ R “ word and attack us with the slur “ LIBTARD “ 
As well as just attacking 
People who are

INFPs and similar personality types
Introverts / Perceivers / iNtuitives
LGBTQ+
Anyone who is left leaning politically
Spiritual empath lightworker psychic ability

And anyone who’s left leaning / minority / women

JUST LIKE THE HIERARCHICAL SYSTEM THAT EDUCATED THEM TO THINK THIS WAY AND ALL COMMON BEIEFS OF TRUSTED AUTHORITY AND FACTS OF LIFE !



What is the solution ?

For misdiagnoses and poverty ?

ONE WORD …

ANARCHISM

For more information on Anarchism , check out


As well as Law of Attraction


So what does that equal to ?

In my opinion , Spiritual Anarchism !



They keys to life !



_ Erica

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